Why should I continue to feel on edge? I don't know... although it probably has to do with the fact that I don't like confrontation (who does really?!) and if things can be avoided, I will avoid them.. case in point.. there is a PG comittee meeting Thursday night.. Ms High School will be there and I don't want to go & spend the night pretending everything is fabulous, when its not!! And same goes for Saturday night, which is the next mums night.. I am sure Ms Ambush will go just to wind me up (and spend the entire time talking to Ms High Scool & prating on about how fabulous everything is) & I wouldn't put it past her to create a scene so "people can see me for what I really am" as she has said she will happily do that.. for what purpose, I really don't know.. perhaps to make herself feel better.
But anyway, I am just trying to not think about it.. but then.. I wish I could go back & tell myself right at the point I put out those first tentative feelers of friendship.. don't do it. it's not going to work out well!
Ahh but life wasn't meant to be easy!
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